Midterms. Bleargh.

I had my midterms two weeks ago. Needless to say, they were D-Pressing! Think about it. 3 subjects each day (2 on the last). TONS of stuff to read. And, to top it off, the "computer answer sheet" SUCKS! It is INACCURATE and I hate using it. One of my classmate even got a hand-me-down sheet!!! And by that, I mean the sheet that has been used and got pencil stains all over it. While I got the one with the stains from the printer ink, on my English test. DAMN IT! By that mierda, I got a 7.80 on English! 7.80!!! What kind of English score for me is THAT?! That is effin' horrible!

And do you know what's weirder? I got a 9.10 on Indonesian, which is the highest score out of 160 students. WTF?! Maybe, if the scores were swapped, and I got 9.10 on English and 7.80 on Indonesian, it would've made sense. Even with 9.10 I would still be disappointed at myself. I wanted to get a perfect 10. The test was easy. BUT THE SHEET MESSED EVERYTHING UP!!!

Math is chronic. I'd rather not tell you. SO LOW.

Other than that, not bad. 9.00 on Islamic Education, a lot of 8's. But... I'm still afraid. My parents are gonna kill me!!!

Rank 17 out of 160. *Sighs*... Definitely not good enough for Yale. I have got to do better. Much better. It's time to kick it up a notch.


Song of the entry is "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus. Pretty much describes this.




XOXO

Miss Independent

I'm gonna give you my Top 5 Favorite Miss Independents. These are tough, strong, and smart women (But, unfortunately, fictional :S) from the hit movies, and... hope you like 'em!

#5...... Lara Croft in "Tomb Raider" (Portrayed by Angelina Jolie)

Lara is generally  described as beautiful, intelligent, athletic (Look at those arms!), and somewhat reckless English archaeologist-adventurer who's into hazardous tombs and ruins. She encounters rivals, gangsters, dangerous animals, legendary creatures, and supernatural beings. She lives in a manor in countryside England. She once served with the Royal Marines. WOW! She kinda seems like a heartless tough warrior chick, but not really. She had a thing going with her friend -Whom she released from a prison in Kazakhstan on the sequel "Tomb Raider: The Cradle Of Life-, Terry Sheridan (Portrayed by Gerard Butler). Though she shot the guy in the end. Rich, beautiful, athletic, smart, and can handle a gun (Two, actually). What could be better? Ah, too bad, she don't do dresses or any of the feminine fashion items.

#4...... Sydney White in "Sydney White" (Portrayed by Amanda Bynes)

Fresh out of high school and entering South Atlantic University to be Kappa like her late mother used to be. Sounds like some typical mindless, preppy chick to you? Not really. She was raised by a construction workers (Her dad's a plumber) and she's going to SAU on scholarship. She learns political science, she can install plumbings, she fearlessly conquered the Beta fraternity house bathroom, she can handle nails and hammers, and to top it off, she cleans up nicely. This is what should be the girl of every guy's dreams! Not some skinny, brainless, partygoer Kappa president. Hey, at least partygoers like Blair Waldorf and Serena Van Der Woodsen still managed to get accepted at Yale and Brown.

#3...... Gretchen Morgan in "Prison Break" (Portrayed by Jodi Lyn O'Keefe)

Hot, smart, and tough. That is soooo Gretchen. She works for The Company as an agent, which constantly gets involved with Scofield and the gang. She's that tough woman with the gun who horsewhipped Sara, kidnapped Sofia and LJ, runs and drives around Panama and LA and Miami to get to Scofield (Or, specifically, Scylla), and usually walks around with a gun or two. Yeah, she sounds rather cruel and ruthless. But, once she gets to her daughter Emily, there she got the softer side of her. And plus, she can handle her pain (The early episodes of season 4 where she got locked up and tortured by The Company). After getting beaten up and whipped and chained, she still could go back around as if nothing ever happened. Too bad, she's evil and ended up in a jail in Miami.

#2...... Rebecca Bloomwood in "Confessions Of A Shopaholic" (Portrayed by Isla Fischer)

25-year-old shopaholic journalist who wanted to work for Allette but ended up in a financial magazine called "Successful Saving". It's kinda ironic for a shopaholic (Spanish: Someone who can't handle her outcome) to work for a financial magazine as an advice columnist. I love her preppy attitude, witty mind, and -Of course!- fabulous closet. So she's not tough like Gretchen Morgan or Lara Croft who is "guns-and-fights" tough. She is tough on dealing with her messy financial problems and juggling her life as a social butterfly, a magazine columnist, and a friend. And her life wasn't exactly smooth-sailing, but as her dad said, "If America can survive with million dollars of debt, so can you." Hmm... This character is a little bit like me. Though my shopping isn't that frequent. And I don't mean to be a narc ;)

and the winner is...

Sara Tancredi in "Prison Break" (Portrayed by Sarah Wayne-Callies)

The daughter of Illinois governor, Frank Tancredi. Her ambition to become a doctor began when she was very young. In Northwestern University, when she was a Phi Beta Kappa, she was introduced to the works of Mahatma Gandhi and decided to become a humanitarian, which brought her the decision to work in Fox River State Penitentiary. She treats her patients (Who were, indeed, cons) with the same cordiality and respect. Season 2, she's involved with the brothers' conspiracy plot and due to drug overdose, lost her medical license. She became a Company target. Season 3, Sara is "killed" and her "head" was in a box sent to Lincoln. Season 4, it turned out Sara's locked up in The Company facility the whole season (Probably the same room Gretchen got locked up later in the season) before finally escaped. She reunited with Michael with the help of a family friend, Bruce Bennett, and shortly joined Don Self's covert "A Team" to get Scylla and retrieve it to the government. Sara turned out to be pregnant later in the season, though she didn't tell Michael just yet. Sara became Michael's only remaining ally on the last third of the season. She saved Michael from his mother, Christina Scofield Hampton, by shooting her from behind. She got married with Michael, but then arrested at her party for murder of Christina. She was kept in Miami-Dade jail, where she met again with Gretchen (Who tortured her during her lockup in the Company facility) and got beaten up by the female officers. Gretchen saved her life from another female con who tried to kill her, and soon enough, they were allies planning their escape with Michael helping from the outside. Gretchen was captured still inside the jail area, leaving Sara to go on her own. Sara reunited with Michael once again, and after their last kiss, Michael told her to go while he'd connect the cable that would shut off the power causing the panel to explode and killed Michael. Four years later, Sara and her son Michael Jr., Lincoln, Sucre, and Mahone appeared at Michael's grave, laying flowers on the tombstone, and ended with the characters walking toward the seaside with the sun.

*Sighs* Emotional end. Smart, passionate, humanitarian, tough, and wearing her heart on her sleeve. This is the perfect mix. Intelligent like Lara Croft, tough like Gretchen, smart Kappa like Sydney, passionate and hearty like Rebecca. Thumbs up for her!

 That'd be all. XOXO

October Breeze

Rainy season is finally here! I loooooooooove the rain. The smells of wet ground, the sound of the wind whooshing, the sound of the trees where the leaves rubs again each other. And the soft breeze that blows through my skin. Plus, rainy season here means cool cardigans and hoodies to me. LOL

Edgy. And most importantly, casual and wearable. That's my main goal in creating looks. Standard skinny jeans from Acne and white sweater by Henry Cottons -You can always replace it with a simple broken white/grayish shirt. Matching vest by Ilse Jacobsen, you can button it up or let it loose like I did in the look. To add more edges, I picked out the cute Topshop necklace and the draped-chain necklace from Cornelia. A little essence of hippie with Aloha Mi Lajki charm bracelet (I love this item! I picked this out for my model many, many times :D). Plus three matching items; Brown Hermes bracelet (left hand), fierce beret from Accessorize, and -my fave!- Rabeanco handbag. And, last but not least, an awesome pair of white boots from Zoar. Lovin' this! Not that fierce like a knee-high woman boots, which makes this more wearable for girls my age. Though, of course, it's not really suitable for girls who live in a tropical place (Like moi, par exemple). You can try bomber sneakers, or maybe ankle boots or wedges (If you don't really do heels or stilettos).

As my friend said, "I'm not feminine, but I don't have to be feminine to like fashion, right?". Fashion doesn't have to be something with dresses and skirts and heels. Fashion is who you are, so it depends on how you dress yourself. Me? I'm a preppy, feminine kind of girl who likes summer dresses and wedges and lip gloss and being pretty. But that's me, that's not you. Sure, some of you might have the same style, but... some of you are just... not the type. Be yourself.

XOXO

I've Decided.

College. On my previous entry, I was quite rebellious about Big Mama's suggestion (Or whatever that is) to take I-O psychology in college. I wanted to take literature as my career path some day. But here's the thing. Imagine this;

Here I am. Fresh out of college, with Literature degree (Hopefully, from Yale). What's next?

Simple question, but I doubt that you could answer that -Let alone quickly. I would chase my dreams, but I gotta think of the prospects too. I mean, I chase my dreams so that I can earn money from it. What's the use if I did chase my dream to study Lit if only to end up as a secretary or an assistant in some office? Hell, no. I don't want to be stuck at a desk job working for someone. And besides, they want me to take over their company someday, as the next and improved generation. Imagine if... I worked at the Human Resources, and then eventually I became to head of the department. Practically an exec here. I want that position. I would picture myself as a successful, young exec. Like Lisa Tabak in "Prison Break" -Only, younger. You know, powerful, determined, and related in familial way to the guy in charge (In the movie, General Krantz). I want to be like that.

Sometimes I wish I'm as brilliant as Michael Scofield or Van Gogh. But it's a little ironic to say that some great people just die young. Michael with his hypothalamic hamartoma, Van Gogh with several illness (Such as schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, syphilis, poisoning from swallowed paints, temporal lobe epilepsy, acute intermittent porphyria). Of course, Michael is a fictional character. But he always felt real to me :)

So maybe I don't want to be that great. I just want to be good enough to make some kind of essay for Yale and get contacted by them. Hopefully they are interested with my application and essay that they would love to give me a full ride. I know, being good enough is not enough. But if that's what it takes, no problem. I'd do my best to do better in the future. From this very moment, I've got to promise myself to work my sweats off to get good grades. For Allah. For me. For my parents. For my future. For Yale.

Child Abuse. Heart-breaking.

I went through YouTube a few days ago, looking for the video about Kelsey Briggs' story. I saw that video months ago when a friend of mine sent the cause invitation to me via Facebook and he said he "cried so hard". And it was really sad. Check this out.



How could someone do such horrible things to a toddler that cute?! I was crying my eyes out and breathing so heavily, my chest went up and down, seeing that child has marks, bruises, and a black eye. And it got even worse when she broke both of her legs. She was two years old! In her mother's care! She also got broken collarbones, multiple bruises and abrations on her lower back, buttocks, and thighs. Oh wait, that's not it. I literally wail out when I saw her dad on her grave. No matter how painful it is for me to see, I would never imagine how would her paternal family feels, especially her father and grandmother. Check this page for more specific information on Kelsey http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kelsey_Smith-Briggs

That is not the worse child abuse case I've ever known. Kelsey had his whole life captured on camera. Playing, laughing, growing up (Though only for a little while). This case is.



Briana Lopez, 6 months old. This murder case is so heart-breaking, the cops cried. The baby had bruises from head to toe. Old and new. And her dad admitted that he had been raping Briana (SHE IS ONLY 6 MONTHS OLD!). And that's not even the saddest part yet! Briana is now locked up in a cage full of trash by her family, despite that the community were willing to claim her body.

I felt bad and guilty. I wish I was a defendant or a consultant, or anyone that would stand up for those poor kids and make a difference!!! I wish I could have done something. But, unfortunately, I was too, too young when that happened.

So please, if you witnessed a child abuse, tell the authorities or local child protection. Call 'em up. You might save a life. Silence is not golden.



P.S. I don't like to call Kelsey "Kelsey Smith-Briggs" because I don't have any respect for her mother, Raye Dawn Smith. She is not capable of being a mother. She should've just let Kelsey live with her paternal grandmother, and Kelsey would be alive right now.

Birthday Wishlist

It's 8 days until my birthday! Time goes by soooo quickly. Last year I'm doing a birthday wishlist just like this one. In my grandma's house, with super-slow Internet. Anyways, here it is. Check it out.

• A new cell phone. Preferably iPhone or T-Mobile Sidekick LX. I know, it's impossible to get this from my parents since they already got me this notebook (Which they said was "A birthday gift for four years" -WTF?-) but, who knows, maybe Big Mama would get me :)
• A bedazzled acoustic guitar, like Taylor Swift has. Again, kind of impossible, but you never know what you're gonna get, right?
• A boyfriend. Haha. This is probably the most ridiculous -It's so ridiculous that it's ridunkulous!- thing I've ever wished for my birthday. But, mehh, it's probably time for "Barney Stinson" to finally settle in ;)
• My family would treat me differently. To appreciate whatever path I'm taking, or to just shut up when they don't like it. And not be such whiny asses.
• A bunch of books I saw at the store earlier. I got my eyes on "The Unfinished Tales" by JR Tolkien, "Confessions Of A Shopaholic" by Sophie Kinsella, "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown, "Gossip Girl" by Cecily Von Ziegesar, and a book of poems and stories for the Middle Ages. Okay, I don't have to have all of these, but I do want to. I would be glad to have even one of these books above.
• A pair of wedges!!! I really need these.
• Either FOX do another season of "Prison  Break" or they make a movie version of it, where Michael turns out to be alive and everyone gets their happy ending. With Michael.
• No more child abuse, ANYWHERE. Seeing the murder case of Kelsey Briggs and Briana Lopez breaks my heart. If only I was there to stop those mindless people from hurting them... :'(
  
• Indonesia to stop getting earthquakes. It's scaring the hell out of me. I'm so worried about everyone. I hope you guys are okay...
  

It's mostly kind of impossible. But, quoting Barney Stinson, there is a point where the possible and impossible meets. And that is... The Possimpible. Like exactly what he said, nothing and everything is possimpible. LOL

That is pretty much what I wish for. Doesn't have to come true, but... a girl can dream, can I? ;)
Until the next time.



XOXO