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Saturday, May 23, 2009

Is Size What Really Matters?

It's already planted in people's minds that the ideal body of a girl is tall and superslim. Like, Taylor Swift, Miley Cyrus, Thandie Newton, Keira Knightley, ... there's a million other examples. And with those girls as 'ideal', girls like Lilly Allen or the Kardashian sisters are considered 'fat'.

I disagree with that. Those girls are skinny, while Lilly Allen... not so much. What I do call the ideal body is a standard BMI, meat on their bones, and toned body. Being skinny -Even though I've never been that skinny- wouldn't be fun. Especially if you're a model. You have to be size zero to stay walking down the runway. You think being a model is fun and pretty, it's actually not like exactly like that! Yes, you get to wear the coolest clothes from major designers and walk down the runway with celebrities analyzing the clothes you're wearing. But, ever think about the diet you're gonna have? Those 'size-zero' people consume not more than water, apple, tomato, and lettuce! Humans can't normally survive with that. Not if you want your body enriched with nutritions. There were models who died of malnutritions and heart attacks. Duh!

Some of these thin girls are just naturally thin. But... the other girls should realize that it's Hollywood. And they don't live in the TV Screen. We live in reality. It's just... twisted. You know why? Because people starts comparing real life with TV. This is what causes teenage girls to have bulimia and anorexia at their very young age.

Sometimes people call me fat. I'm about 5'7", I weigh about 123 lbs. I look in the mirror. I look at myself. This is not what I call 'fat'. This is just what I call 'curves'. It's something that some of those Hollywood girls don't have. I have meat. I have chubby cheeks. I have tushy ass -And *ahem* boobs-, and I'm proud of it. I don't know if I'd love myself as I do right now if I have my body like those superskinny girls. So, for all you girls who aren't confident of your body, don't be. I have my heroes for this. We all should be comfortable in our own skin. There are a lot of big girls in Hollywood who are successful and confident with their figure. Don't be so hard on yourself. Besides, being girls with curves mean you can eat good food. Not just some veggies is tiny portions or those diet stuff that tastes blah and is that expensive.



Girls you shouldn't look up as a body standard...
Taylor Swift, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez, Thandie Newton, Keira Knightley, Emily Osment, Kate Moss, Vanessa Hudgens, Anne Hathaway, Victoria Beckham

Girls you should look up as a body standard...
Lily Allen, Carrie Underwood, Jennifer Lopez, Ashlan Gorse, Leighton Meester, Beyonce Knowles, Jessica Biel, Megan Joy Corkery, Michelle Rodriguez, Missy Peregrym, Alicia Keys

There are also "big girls" who rules Hollywood. You know, Jordin Sparks, Jennifer Hudson, America Ferrera, Kelly Clarkson, Jessica Simpson, Adele...

Song of the entry is Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield and Believe In Me by Demi Lovato.


Catch ya laters! You know you love me.
XOXO

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Movie Marathon Day!

Yesterday, my friends and I were hanging out at Ristia's place to have a Movie Marathon Day. We first saw 'Disaster Movie' which was... I don't know. It was drop-dead hilarious, but I don't see the point of this movie. Well, I guess that's the point of the movie; so random. There were Hannah Montana, Jessica Simpson, J.T., "Juno" and stuff. Weird, but SUPER-FUNNY! Of course, we shouldn't really watch this kind of movie since there were inappropriate language and scenes. It was enjoyable, however.

Then we watched ".Rec", a Spanish zombie movie. It's about a couple of people -Plus a TV show host and her cameraman- who were trapped in an apartment. There were local owners, firemen, cops and the two TV crews. I dig the whole 'shaky camera' thingy, makes everything more real. I do hate the ending, though. Everyone died. Ugh.

"Click" is afterwards. I cried, of course. And so did some of my friends. It's soooooo sad yet brings a good message to the viewers. Life's too short; don't fast-forward it.

Then we saw "John Tucker Must Die". Reminds me of him a lot. Four girls, one guy. A star athlete, girls worship the ground he walks on -*Ahem* metaphorically speaking-. Cheats on the girls. What an asshole.

We played DDR after that. Tightens up the legs and fun as a bonus point. I love this game!

And then Dad picked me up at about 5pm.

It was a lot of fun. I'm hoping that we can do another one like this. Maybe, sleepover next time?

X-Man

Nope, I ain't talking about Wolverine and his gang. I'm talking about X-Man, a.k.a. former boyfriend. My X-Man.

His name is Pascal, he's quite tall, supercute, volleyball star, he's a total 'womanizer'. I liked him. I knew that he's got a long list of girls he dated, but it wasn't a big deal for me. Stupid girl.

About a year ago, June, after a graduation party, he started texting me flirty messages. Some of them were like messages that a guy sends to his girlfriend. I was super-flattered, and I thought he really liked me. I thought he really meant what he said.

A few days later, he popped out the question, "Will you be my girlfriend?". It was a 'once-in-a-lifetime' chance so I said "Yes". Total player, after that he just dissapeared. No calls, no texts, NOTHING. So, two weeks later, I broke up with him. Well, he was about to break up with me, but I broke up with him first. Ha!

We were at least still friends. One night we were texting and... here's the shizzle.
Me: "How cud u ask sum gal 2 b ur gf when u barely kno her? a week l8er u realizd she's not d1 then u dump her."
Him: "Like wit u?"
Me: "Yea. Wud u xplain it 2 me?"
Him: "Its not bc I liked another gal. I din wanna hurt u."
Me: "Hurt me? why?"
Him: "Bc I... already hav 3 GFs when we went out. I'm so sorry."
Me: "Asshole."

4 GIRLFRIENDS?! What, was he inspired by 'John Tucker Must Die'? It's just not any of us knew and unite to break him. I planned to tell one of his girl about this. I think I know one of them. John Tucker, and I'm Kate. It's just that I wasn't sent by the three other girls. I just fell for him. Hard.

It's a new dawn, new day, new life, and I'm feeling good now. Actually, I felt a whole lot better when he ruined my friend, Dika's friendship with Wanda. Dika yelled at him and he almost CRIED! OMG! I saw tears flooding on his eyes, this close to burst! I was only a feet away, and I was like, "Awwwh. So sensitive! What a wimp." I knew he heard that. I don't care. He cheated on me with three other girls. That's what he gets for screwing up with me.

I had to thank him, though. He's the inspiration for the heartbreak songs I wrote. Of course, there are other inspirations, like Ristia's ex and Joe Jonas. But, still, that doesn't change the fact that he hurt my feelings.

Song of the entry is Smile by Lily Allen.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

My-oh-Miley!

I'm no hater. I'm a huge fan of Miley Cyrus. And I just want to say what I want to say. So, all haters out there, don't hate me for this.

Miley's a great person. She's only 16, but her albums are on the top of the ladder. Hannah Montana: The Movie is a big hit. Superhot boyfriend. Famous friends. A million fans screaming her name. Money. Designer clothes. Paparazzi following her everywhere. Most of us think she has everything. But, don't you think she missed a normal life?

Maybe some of us thinks it's cool to have paparazzi taking pictures and following you every minute of every day. But isn't is tiring after a certain amount of time? It's like having some people harassing you every day. Asking you about your relationship with your boyfriend. Even though I didn't have some retard holding his camera and asked you personal questions every day, I've been through that sort of thing. *shudders* I wish I could kick his butt...

Y'all hate her because of the Vanity Fair pictures. I know, little kids shouldn't do that in the future (And neither do we). But, like you've never done something wrong! Some girls her age even made "that" tape with their boyfriends! Some girls her age lost their virginity already. It's all a part of some girls' normal life. It's just that she's super-famous that everyone took too big of a deal with it. Get a life!

The slanted-eye pics. Well, my friend is Hmong and she didn't find that picture offensive. People just starts to take advantage of her. They scoured every inch and make such a big deal to every little things. Us teens likes to goof off, right? Why can't she? Why are you all so pissed off by a freaking picture?

"A Disney Channel shouldn't date a 20-year-old underwear model." So what? Just because she's a Disney star, doesn't mean that she should live in celibacy! Maybe she sees him differently. Not just his face, his bod, or his *ahem* assets. Don't judge the book by its cover. If the cover is a guy on tight pants posing in front of the camera, doesn't mean that what's inside the book is that nude-y. Maybe he's not what we think it is.

Try to understand. Most people has a very logical reason for that. I'm sure Miley has. She's only 16. She just gets more pressures than we do now. Give her a rest.

I know what I said might not be true. And I might be just a stinking 12-year-old who's "trying to defend her idol". I'm just someone who's trying to look at the bright side of everything, and not to be so judgmental. Aren't you sick and tired getting judged all the time? If you are, then stop judging people and being so harsh. Life is hard by its own. Don't harden it again.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Blurting Out-- It Gets Better!

Life doesn't sail smooth lately. It kinda sucked. A lot.

People kept judging on MY NOSE. That's plain ridiculous! Just because my nose isn't as great as them, at least I still have a stinking nose! They make fun of me in those stupid old pictures in front of me. Hello, I still have ears and a heart! Don't you think I do?

Mom just caught me cussing in my facebook status. I know that's not nice, but can't I be mad? don't I have the right to express how I'm feeling? If I get the chance, I might not be as 'brutal' as now. She doesn't want me to go to an Islamic school so that I don't get too much pressure. She's seen people like Katy Perry and Lady Gaga who came from religious family and went to Cath school. Well, I don't get the same pressure like them, but I'm most likely equally pressured! I can't keep my anger inside; burning my throat and piling up in my brain. This is the place where I don't have to be afraid and hold back. I can write whatever I want in here. It's a democracy, shouldn't I get freedom?

School sucked more. The rules are... irrelevant to me. "Student who refuse to take part in flag ceremony/assembly gets 5 minus points." some students have a very logical reason for their refusal. Like, a student with self-esteem issue gets forced to lead the assembly while some 'too-cool-for-school' makes major fun of him. The guy refuses and gets 5 points plus a bad reputation for 'disrespecting' teacher. That's HIS pride that's on the line! He is going to risk his life and psychology health? I don't think that's a good idea. Change is good. But, not skipping steps and make a huge one. Take it one step at a time. No need to rush. Whoa, I didn't mean to quote Jordin Sparks on the second sentence.

There were times when I want to scream a curse but right now... no need to. I spilled what I felt. It felt a whole lot better. I'm a great person with many potentials. I have many good friends. People likes me. So what? My family's not that supportive, but I know that my parents are, deep inside. Someday, they'll stop making fun of me. Someday, they'll no longer saying bull about how useless I am. I am the director of my own life. I don't care about what people think of me. I'm an older girl who was born only 12 years ago. Ironic. But I won't let it get to me. Not a chance.

Songs of the entry are Save The Day by David Archuleta, Details In The Fabric by Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison, Make Some Noise by Miley Cyrus, I Don't Care by Fall Out Boy, and Fuck You by Lily Allen.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The Song!

This is it. The song I'd like to dedicate to 'you-know-who'. Not the 'Ex-Man' you-know-who, but 'McDreamy' you-know-who. I finished it in class. Ridiculous to write it when your headmistress is explaining about force and Newton and stuff, yes. But, it's probably the 'deepest' song I've written yet. Here it is.



The Reason

The canvas is plain and white
The pages are dull and empty
I have no reason to fight
For I've never believed what I see

You came into my life
Like a dream come true
Oh I feel so alive
All because of you

Your smile lightens up my day
I wanna make you mine if I may
Your voice keeps whispering in my ear
As if you're really here
You're the reason for this song
to be written

I hear your voice like a beautiful music
Playing in my mind
It gives me the feeling
It's only a matter of time

Your smile lightens up my day
I wanna make you mine if I may
Your voice keeps whispering in my ear
As if you're really here
You're the reason for this song
to be written

When I see your face,
A hundred poems I'll write about you
A thousand paintings I'll draw for you
A million songs I'll sing for you

But if you're gone, when your gone,
The poems will be just letters
The paintings will be just splatters
The songs will be just noises

The sky was never that blue
Until I see you

'Cuz your smile lightens up my day
I wanna make you mine if I may
Your voice keeps whispering in my ear
As if you're really here
You're the reason for this song
to be written

Without you this song would
never be written

You are the reason for
this song to be written.



Tell me what you think. Hit me up on MySpace (http://www.myspace.com/asharfinamusic or http://www.myspace.com/asharfina), Twitter (http://www.twitter.com/asharfina), or just send me an e-mail. I'll record it and post it on my YouTube channel asap. Thanks. You know you love me,


XOXO



P.S.: This song is written by myself, and I hereby CLAIMED it. Anyone who claims or uses this song without my permission would be involved with related laws and sin.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Backpacking Plan!

My BFF, Ristia, and I were planning to go backpacking and holiday-hopping. Of course, it's not until we're officially adults (17 here.) so we're not getting dictated by our parents lol. And, we need time for the money, 'cuz I know it costs hell of a dime.

Anyways, our destinations are: Singapore - London - Paris - Zurich - Rome - Barcelona - San Francisco - Los Angeles - Las Vegas - Utah - New York. That's 11 cities total. We're big dreamers, alright. but, hey, Jason Castro once said "Dreams come true. So dream big." right?

Singapore; it's just a transit. Neither of us want to go here so bad. But shopping in Haji Lane would be nice. Duh!

London; YEAH! There's a zillion places we want to visit. London Eye, Buckingham Palace, Madame Tussauds, Tate Modern, Thames River... It's a long list. We planned to stay here a little bit longer. We could probably check out the cities around London.

Paris; Eiffel and tres hotties! Whoop-dee-doodle-doo. This place would be perfect for us who's diggin' for cute guys. And the cuisines. And 'marche aux-puces bla-bla-bla idr' flea market.

Zurich: Idk, but it'd be fun to go to the safest city in the world. And it's a neutral country. And the chocolate-y. Team Switzerland all the way! lol.

Rome: Fontana De Trevi! We so wanna stay in the hotel they shot Lizzie McGuire The Movie. It's cute, but the landscape architecture on the courtyard is beautiful. Oh, we also have to see Colloseum, and go shopping.

Barcelona: My fave! Alhambra mosque in Granada, museums, probably take pics outside Sagrada de Familia. Try tapas. Check out: spanish hotties. Yowww!

San Francisco: Ristia's spot. The trem, and... I don't really know about this place ;)

Los Angeles: One week or more here! Can't leave the room without camera. The celebs! The beaches are too beautiful to miss. and, ooh, should I bring bikini? jk. I'll probably go for shorts and tanks. I'm no bitch.

Las Vegas: City of hell. Brendon Urie aka Ristia's future hubbie's hometown. We'll look somewhere around Grand Canyon. Spa! lol.

Utah: Home of David James Mayorga Archuleta. Sigh... Spots don't really matter if you can meet the Archuletas. I adore them all. (This'd be so embarassing if one of them read this...)

New York: Last stop. Upper East Side, Manhattan, Central Park... anyone knows a good restaurant?

Backpacking = pack light. Good, because I won't be carrying a suitcase that could fit me in there around. But I'm pretty sure that I'll come home bringing one or two extra bags. Don't worry, I'll shop at thrift stores and flea markets. It's not like I'm gonna splurge in Harrods, Via Condotti, or Bloomingdale's. It's economical crisis. I can't spend money on designer stuff, while on the other side of the world, people can barely eat. I can't live with that.

Song of the entry is "Sneakernight" by Vanessa Hudgens.