How I Met Your Mother, Facebook Quizzes, and TheOpenMouth

Things were really weird yesterday. Everything reminds me of him. I think I'm starting to feel... like I do have feelings for him as well. Which is not good.

Yesterday, I went to SurfTheChannel to watch the latest season of "How I Met Your Mother". There was only the first episode; Definitions. The previous season ended with Barney and Robin liking each other but not want to be 'boyfriend and girlfriend', while Ted finally got hired as an architecture professor in Columbia University. On this season, it turns out that Barney and Robin has had affair the whole summer... and still hasn't done The Talk. The Talk is the part where the girl and the guy sit down and decide where is their relationship going. Anyway, Barney was jealous when Brad asked Robin to this hockey game. And they talked a little, then Brad starts "Oh, God. Is this The Talk? Robin, I'm looking for something serious.", and Robin was --You know what? Here's what happen.

Robin : No, Brad. No. Barney and I...
Brad : Oh! You and Barney...?
Robin : No. I mean, I don't know what we are. My heart tells me I'm feelin' it, but my head tells me it's not such a good idea.

Ehmagawd! That is EXACTLY how I feel! Did they read my mind or something? Anyways, Lily locked them up in her room later and forced them to have The Talk. At the end, they decided to lie and "pretend" to be boyfriend and girlfriend. The episode wraps up with Barney and Robin walking out of Lily's apartment hand-in-hand going for brunch with Lily, Marshall, and Ted watching. Here's the one that caught my attention.

Ted : You do realize they're just lying, right?
Lily : No, they just didn't realize that they're not.

WHOA. That is... Man, that gave me butterflies in my stomach.

Oh, wait. It gets worse.

Almost all the romance quizzes on Facebook I took, like "Who will you fall for?" or "Who's your guy?", I always got "Best Friend" or that sort of thing. Yesterday, I took "Which movie romantic couple I got?", and instead of "Edward + Bella" like everyone else, guess what I got? "Ron + Hermione: The Best Friends"! Perfect. That's just... great. "You'll end up with someone who's been a very close friend...you know each other inside and out and are fully comfortable with each other...this romance is truly magical." UGH!

I went through Google Images for "boy-girl friendship" images that I used for my previous entry, "You Know That I Know", and I found a girl-boy friendship graphic. From this site http://theopenmouth.wordpress.com/2009/06/16/boygirl-the-friendship-graph/ about... Well, The Friendship Graph. "This is where the myth ends, how guys and girls cannot be friends. But yes it is possible for a little while." I don't wanna lose him, man. I just can't.

Okay. Maybe I start to feel the sparks. So maybe I started to feel awkward around him. So maybe I'm having a little "Bromance". So maybe I have this annoying pit in my stomach every time I think of him and the term "Dating". So maybe I start to feel like he's more important than I thought. What now?

I used to wish I felt the same way. I like him, he likes me, we go out, problem solved. But, like I wrote, it's never that simple. It's our friendship that's at stake. Believe me, we're very solid. We're not gonna just... throw it away. At least, I'm not. And besides, I don't wanna break his heart, man. I'm such a Barney. I flirt 24/7. That's why I'm still single. But on the other side, I'm looking for the real thing as well.

You know what? No. Hell, no. I'm not gonna ditch this friendship for a relationship that I doubt it would last long. I mean, I love him. But, love doesn't have to be tied to relationship, right? It could be platonic love, or maybe familial love. It doesn't have to be that way. He deserves a better girl. And I'll find another guy in a heartbeat.

Song of the entry is Shontelle ft. Akon: Stuck With Each Other. Until the next time.


XOXO